ahhhh frienships...

last night i had a girls night with my friend of 15 yrs!!! shit. im getting old. scary! we had a night of laughs, drinking, eating. and i mean EATING. pig out night. oh dear i think its return of the blob. LOL. our stomachs hurt soooo much from indulging/scoffing junk food. chocolate, chips, ice cream and good old white wine. along with a meal of pasta bolognaise douced with chilli flakes. im never pigging out like that ever again.... lets just say the tucker shoot is working over time. OMG i cant believe i just typed that....LOL

my new hobby...

i have just started to copy dvds. i have done 10 this week! naughty naughty. lol...i love it!i watched the movie "Man on fire" staring Denzel Washington. i highly recommend it. and yes i have a copy. he said in the movie "Revenge is best served cold",i like that saying. not that im revengeful and malicious,but i thought it had a good ring to it....
i am about to watch one called "Godsend." sounds good.
tomorrow im catching up with my best friend who i refer to as my SS.(Surrogate sister) the reason being that my sister and i arnt close. we are not even friends. things are even more distant now than ever due to an unpleasant fight we had on xmas day in front of the whole family. i wont go into detail,i dont want to live that experience again. anyway i love my friend dearly, shes my best friend and surrogate sister.we are probably going to go to the movies and see Alfie, staring spunky tasty Jude Law.Mmmmmmmmmmmmm......LOL

australia day!

no public holiday for me today....no no no.i had to work. the day started off cruisy and all was done by 10.30. so i opened my mouth and was saying "my god its so quiet, ive finished all my work and i want to go home!"that was a big mistake.....i went out side for a ciggy and on returning to the ward i was told i missed all the commotion. a patient had had a collapse so the emergency team was called. the patient survived. however approximately an hour and a half later there was another code called on a different patient. this time the patient had collapsed and i had to run and get the crash cart! shit the adrenalin was running....i was a bit scared as to what was going to happen. as it turned out the patient was ventillated by the drs present and i was the one to scribe the events. i was shitting my pants as ive never scribed before. so i thought ive just got to write everything word for word that was happening to the patient at the time.as time passed the patient returned to a so so stable condition and i had to return to my nursing duties of the patients i was caring for. a code is pretty scary, you have to be quick as time depends on the survival of the individual.....apart from that my day was good. i have one complaint. bloody massive cockcroaches....ive now killed 3 in 3 days. is there a plague?ive never seen such evil ugly critters in melbourne. ive seen them in QLD, but not here.they make my skin crawl.....yuck!!!

i hope i dont have to have surgery!

i have recently noticed that on my right hand i have a painful lump on my index finger. it occurred to me approximately 1 week ago. its right at the base of that finger. what the hell is it? i got an oppinion off my uncle who is a doctor of chiroprachtic medicine. he examined my hand and said i have a "ganglion."i researched this on the net and discovered that no one really knows why people get these. its inflammation of tissue which can be aspirated via a local anaesthetic or if necessary can require surgery under general anaesthetic. or they can dissapear. i hope this is the case! i noticed today it was difficult to turn on a tap and take bloodpressures. i really hope i dont have to have surgery and that it just goes away....apart from that SSDD(same shit different day!). i know i was down with my previous blog and have come to the conclusion that im pre-menstral.GRRRRREAT....... gotta love being a female. LOL.

am i a recluse?

well. i was invited to go out with work friends today to a pub in the city. i wanted to go to be sociable and also because these people are really easy going and i get along with them really well. i was a little anxious about having to go and drive into the city and also because im feeling fat. god i was thinking of every excuse i could think of not to go but i felt that if i dont go i wont get invited to other work gatherings.so i decided stuff it im staying home i cant be bothered dressing up and going out,i will stay home and play around on the pc and even have an arvo nanna nap! i find im sleeping alot and am not that motivated to do things. am i slipping back into depression?am i a comfotable content person within myself to stay at home and watch dvds,tv,listen to music,tap on the pc and to see my partner at home and do the above? do i feel threatened by others? i dont know. i tell myself from time to time "i want a life," its just hard to make those steps. am i turning into a hermit/recluse?

my whinge for the day.

we females are expensive creatures! we purchase lotions, potions, lingere, sanitary wear, make up, maintain ourselves with expensive visits to the hairdressers and to the beauty salon for painful waxing. Not only that, we put up with PMT, childbirth, and the raising of children along with sleepless nights. I am not a mother, but i have seen it and how exhausting it is on a female. MEN they work, come home ,recieve a cooked meal, get there washing done, kick back and have a beer while they watch the footy!!! Its not fair. why couldnt god have invented us with a flawless finish, no hair to wax, hair that doesnt need colouring,no PMT or painful childbirth. men should have been designed to have kids as well. LOL...
all of these thoughts filtered my brain today when i relised it looks as though im wearing shag pilled carpet on my legs. $50 to go and get a leg wax.$110 to go to the hairdressers.well i cant afford it. so today i purchased my own tub of $20 wax which should last me a while. as for the hair, thats going to have to wait as rents due, food shop, gas bill, electricity bill and my credit card. ARGHHH...Its not fair. us females, we are expensive arnt we?

aarrrrggghhhhh

OMG i just wrote my first ever blog!!!!it was a page long and i accidently deleted it....im not happy. i had it perfectly wriiten in neat paragraphs describing my events for the day.....i could swear my head off(i am under my own breath at present.....).i cant type what i had previously, it would take me hours......all i will say is "BLOODY TECHNOLOGY" is it all that f***ing good???
wee i dont expect any responses to this one. im very pissed off at the moment. i will have to leave a more detailed blog another day. i am now going to kick back and watch some of the aussie open................