Monday, February 28, 2005

no mondayitis for me.

Ahhhh. what a relaxing weekend. i visited my parents, went swimming in the beach, had a delicious BBQ cooked by my dad, and test drove my first car. was quiet happy with myself tackling a manual! (i do drive an auto and have been ever since i got my licence 14yrs ago.) it was a ford focus. was much better to drive than my crappy hyundai, which steers like a truck! however, it felt a little tinny, and i really dont think i can go manual after having an auto.i used to drive my ex's manual BMW. He taught me how to drive one. im going to test drive some mazdas, toyotas, and holdens. im sure to come across something that tickles my fancy.
i had a discussion with my mum regarding my sisters wedding. she said if i dont feel comfortable going, dont go. it put me at ease. mum is soooo understanding. i love her to infinety!!!!
my sister is sneaky though. i came across mum and dads invite to the wedding and, their RSVP is for the 11th of march, where as mine is the 28th of feb. i figure that my sister thinks that im not going to attend(which im not) so she can then have time to invite someone else. that is how i interpret it. right now im feeling a bit ANGRY!!!! bitch, she walks all over me. ive had ENOUGH. anyway i wont go into it, thats another story.
well i have only two more days off then im back to work for six days straight. blah!
All good things do come to an end.....

Friday, February 25, 2005

SPIDER!!!!!! yuck. in MY back yard....

dilemma! what do i do???

my sister is getting married at the end of march. i have been invited but my partner hasnt. im very pissed off. i sent her an e mail saying "keith isnt on the invitation", she said "the invitation is for you". idont really want to go, but i know that i will be used as amunition and will be labelled "the nasty sister" if i dont attend. WTF do i do????
we had a massive fight xmas day and we havnt spoken since. i appologised via email boxing day. she also said in her recent e mail that shes still very upset and hurt with me.my response was "i apologised, what more can i say and do. if your that upset and hurt with me then why have you invited me? do you feel obligated? do you REALLY want me to attend?" she relied by saying " the invitation is for you, please RSVP by the 28th of feb."
ARRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!! Help. what do i do? im trying to weigh things up. we are not close, i wont have a good time, she doesnt bother with me, she forgets my birthdays and doesnt call or send cards, she doesnt visit me,we never go out (at least as friends), and we never chat on the phone for a good chin wag! i dont want to upset mum and dad either. but personally this issue that i have with my so called sister is between her and i isnt it? please someone help!!!!
i thought about caalling her but im 100% sure we will have a fight.
HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lizard at mumbulla

dolphins

comming down the water slide. weeeeeeeeeee!!!!

brogo dam

the blue pool

attack of the sunscreen!!!

state forest

thousands of crabs at merrimbulla lake!

Thursday, February 24, 2005

memorable moments!!!!

Im back! I went away along the saphire coast for 5 days.I stayed in merrimbula and had an absolute ball... it was a shame to return home. but i spose all good things must come to an end. keith and i had booked a holiday from a shop a docket. it cost us $250 each for 4 days accomodation which included; a continental brakfast every day, 3 dinners at the bowling club, a winery lunch,a bottle of champagne on arrival and an extra night free.so here is my diary entry from day one to five of my minni memorable holiday break.

Friday, 18th of feb;
up at 6am. blah! we want to get away as soon as possible. we have a long drive ahead of us.
its now 2.15pm, and we have arrived at our destination after a 6hr and 15min drive.
im a bit weary but excited as the day is beautiful and sunny. im now on holidays! away from melbourne. yay!
so we check in, unpack, have a caffine fix, and drive around town checking out the beaches. im very impressed. the beaches are beautiful! so off we go on a stroll hearing the ocean ebb and flow. what a great place to stay.
we had dinner at the bowling club. very tasty and filling. not bad at all.
back at the motel room, we plan our holiday for the next 4-5days.

Saturday, 19th of feb;
rise and shine. its 27 degrees today. time for breakfast then a dash to the beach for a refreshing swim. the water is clear, the beach is clean, the breeze is gentle, and the sun is warm. off we go and jump the waves. its hard to get out its sooo salubrious. this is the life! its the first time ive gone swimming in 15 months. OMG am i that sedate??? no im just not confident to show off my fat rolly polly body. LOL..
we then have some lunch and relax on the rooms balcony. keith is keen to hire a motor boat to cruise along the lake. im not very eager, but decide its possibly going to be a lot of fun. true it was! we went as fast as we could and done lets say, doughnuts on the water. it was hysterical. i had no idea at first how to steer the bloody thing, so i kept on going round and round in circles. i laughed so hard my sides were in agony. the sun was hot so we decided to put some sun screen on. i attacked keith with it and he was covered in the stuff. talk about laugh laugh laugh. we cruised for about an hour and a half and we went back and endulged in an ice cream. YUMMY..
my uncle vetured up for a night via his plane with 2 friends. we picked them up from the airport and went out for dinner at a seafood restaurant. very pricy! it was one of those places where you get a large plate with a small portion. however it was satisfying. we endulged in 4 bottles of alcohol and got some more when we returned to the motel. post drinking, laughing and enjoying each others company, it was sleep time. keith rode the porciline bus over night. he believes it was the champagne we had prior to dinner. i was fine just a little tipsy.

Sunday, 2oth of feb;
rain rain go away, come again another day! its pouring. GRRREAT. there is meant to be a market on today i wanted to go to, its a wash out. the rain is torential. so we drive to bega and tour the cheese factory. a bit boring, but at least its something. i dont want to sit in a motel room for the day.
we then check out the scenic views of tathra, and head off to the merrimbula wharf for lunch. on obsevation of the ocean from the wharf, there were dolphins! it attracted a crowd. keith managed to get some pics at the right time.
time was ticking by, so keith drops my uncle and his friends off at the airport. i stayed in the room and had a nanna nap. i was so tired.it refreshed me. i needed it.
once again we dined at the bowling club and had a gamble at the pokies. call me a loser, as well as keith.

Monday, 21st of feb;
its a little rainy but warm. today was a big day!
we headed off to an aboriginal site where there was a waterfall. more like a billabong called Mumbulla. we bush bashed for kilometers to get there. keith was saying "god i hope we dont get a flat tyre"? i responded and said," good one, youve cursed us now!" it was a pretty spot with water holes and rocky areas. keith being an amature photographer, got snaps of a decent sized lizard along with scenery pics. the forest is beatiful. there was a sign that was supposed to say state forest. instead it said 'Ate forest', we had a chuckle about that one.
the next stop was a place called the brogo dam. we had planned to canoe here but the weather was ominous, so sight seeing was the only way to go along with taking photos.
our adventure contined as we set off to a place called bermagui. i saw in a flyer that there was a place called "The Blue Pool" which is said to have healing properties. its this huge oblong shaped rock, like a pool along the coastal rocks of the ocean. and yes, its a crystal clear blue pool. we hopped in and swam. the water was warm and it was so deep. keith couldnt touch the bottom. neither could i. it started to rain heavy, along with the cracking sounds of thunder. this didnt stop us from enjoying "the blue pool". our towels and clothes were soaked. so we headed back to merimbula soaking the car seats. you have to laugh. we did. it was a fun day, but tireing with all the driving and checking out of our destinations.
this time dinner was at the golf club. i wanted a seafood platter. keith wasnt keen on that. i didnt want to get one for one, so i had a chook filo thing.was enjoyable. cant complain.

Tuesday,22nd of feb;
another warm day. today we headed off to eden and sighted the town and beaches. two folds bay was one feature we observed. beautiful sparkling inlets. you private little beaches. we then set off to the Grevillea winery estate in bega. enjoyed a BBQ lunch with salad, ice cream for dessert, and topped it off with plunger coffee. then for a bit of wine tasting. we purchased some chardonay, sauvignon blanc, and some merlot. one of the wines is called "Lunatic hill". funny name, delicious tasting on the palette. a delicate, grassy, tropical fruit aromas and flavours. the name lunatic hill was set aside as the site for an asylum by, sir henry parkes. the promised asylum was never built and a family settled the property in the early 1950s. so thats how the wine was named!
when driving off from grevillea estate, i could hear a loud airy sound. straight away i thought its a flat tyre. sure enough it was. keith did curse the car. LOL. he changed the tyre and it was repaired at a service station in merimbula. no dramas, no worries.
while that was being repaired we went to a place called tura beach, about 10mins out of merimbula. we went in the ocean and caught some waves. no one was there. it was our private little beach. the waves were strong and i found it difficult to get out. the force of the waves kept sucking me out. i actually got scared and started think that there may be a rip. i battled the waves as best as i could and found that the only easy way to get out was to swim with each wave as it made its way to the shore. finally i made it puffing, panting, and short of breath. it was frightening at the time. keith was fine, he was splashing about body surfing.the housing estates here are impressive. large modern homes all with ocean views. definately a great place to retire.
tonight was our last night at the bowling club for dinner. we had another go at the pokies, and i came out even. so i wasnt a loser this time. while i was there i swear on my life i saw an ex boyfriend of mine i dated when i was in my late teens/early twenties. i got nervous, and old memories started to flood my mind. i thought what the hell do i say to him? anyway you know how people believe you have a twin somewhere in the world? well this was my exes twin. it wasnt him, but OMG i seriously thought it was. quiet spooky...

Wednesday 23rd, of feb;
up we get. got to check out by 10am. time for breaky and to pack the car. one last thing to do. off we go to Magic Mountain theme park.ive been dying to go there, and have decided im going to be a dare devil for once in my life!
first we went on the toboggan, then grand prix cars, the roller coaster, the carpet slide as well as the water slide. id never been on a toboggan so i took it slow to start off with. by my fourth go, i was as quick as lightening. the roller coaster was like the mad mouse. i wasnt keen to go but i forced myself and screamed as loud as i could. now that was a one off ride.
the waterslide had two rides. one called the black hole, and the other called wipeout. so i went on both and was petrified with the black hole as it was a steep black hole. i had no idea where i was going to twist and turn but i had to deal with it as there was no way out! the other one wasnt enclosed so i felt safe as i could see where i was going.
all in all i was proud of my self for going on these rides as im never one to participate in thrill seeking. i had achieved. it felt good!!!!
we left and drove the long journey home to melbourne. 6hrs and 10mins. we had a good trip which is definately memorable...........
check out the pics above.

Thursday, February 17, 2005

a new look

i went to the hair dressers yesturday and had dark browns along with blonde high lights. im relly happy with it. i was worried it would look crap. however its effect is quite striking.

well im away now for a few days. am looking forward to to sun,surf and sand. along with R and R. YES!!! pure bliss. i deserve it.
ciao for now. BRB soon...........

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

who needs sex!!!!!

OMG.who needs sex when you practically have an orgasm over indian food! my partner and i went out for tea to an indian restaurant to celebrate valentines day. i have NEVER in my whole life drooled sooo much (in public) to the decadent tastes on the pallette as i did last night with the food from Bedi's restaurant. i highly recommend the place. if you love indian food, (and even if you dont) take the plunge and go there!(see flyer below).so all you melbournians, DO IT,tell me your opinion. dont be shy now...
So the moral of the story;"if you dont want to have to have sex, go to Bedi's".LOL

Also:
IM EXCITED! as im getting broadband soon. AND, im going away for a few days along the NSW coast. im as happy as a pig in shit....

INDIAN RESTAURANT...YUMMY...

Saturday, February 12, 2005

frienships

last night i stayed at a friends house and watched some movies while i gorged down some pizza!!!! theres a few extra kilos i could do without...
it was a good night. shes my best friend. she is"Nicky."

Friday, February 11, 2005

dreams...

dream city!last night i dreampt that my legs were swollen and full of fluid. (oedema).my mum took me to the Drs and he tryed to aspirate the fluid from my legs. this didnt work.i remember being so scared and frightened. the dr then whipped out an IV needle to help drain the fluid. this was also unsuccessful.i was screaming, crying my eyes out. my legs were so sore, id never experienced so much pain in my whole life.the dr glarred at my mother and my mother looked back with horror. its as though they were speaking without using words. i then said to my mum what is it? she just looked at me with tears rolling down her face. some how i knew what my diagnosis was. i let out an almighty cry and said its cancer isnt it? i have ovarian cancer and its terminal. mum nodded along with the dr. i was then assisted into the car by my mother and father. i was not in a good condition. i have no idea why i dreampt that! but it was soooo vivid.
i also dreampt about terrorists. this was not as vivid as my cancer dream. i know why i dreampt this one. there was a documentry on tv last night on the 9/11 plane crash. it was so devistating to hear the live recordings of the flight attendants and the presumed events that occured on that day.it obviously stuck in my mind,so i went to bed and had a dream about it.bastard terrorists. its so sad. so cruel. so many lives were lost. they were brainwashed religious freaks!
as for my cancer dream. i looked it up in my dream book. it said:
"To dream of cancer,denotes illness of someone near you,and quarrels with those you love.Depressions may follow to the man of affairs after this dream".
do i really believe that? no! what a load of shit....
my luck colour today for scorpio is"Yellow". yeah right! so does that mean i will be lucky if im surrounded by yellow? LOL...

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

sicky!

hahahaha. ive chucked a sicky! naughty naughty. oh well i work hard and have some sick leave owing me. i worked last night with the nurse from hell.(im exagerating a little) shes the old matron type like in a country practice. good old matron slone!LOL. she talks down to people, sucks up the doctors arses and loves to order us nurses around! i cant stand it. personally i dislike her and i feel as though the feeling is mutual.i try and avoid working the days she is rostered on but unfortunately she worked last night. thats how much i dislike her and her attitude towards me. alot of people say dont worry about it. yeah i spose thats easy for others to say when they dont feel the vibes and attitude i cop from her. one thing i have to say is that im now officially on holidays!YAY.therefore i wont see nurse 'M' for 4 weeks.PARTY PARTY PARTY.im actually not the only one on the ward that feels the same. theres another girl who has said to me "she treats me as though im stupid",and yes she does that to me too.this girl is actually thinking of leaving due to nurse M's demeanor. thats so sad. how one person can make you feel miserable to want to leave your job due to decreased satisfaction. i guess it happens every where. people can be so cruel. cold.what goes around comes around? i dont know wheather to believe that. ive put up with nurse M for 3 years now.

anyway as for the big night out i had recently, things have settled. the waters are calm. thank god! people actually said i was funny. so i guess its a good thing. i was feeling embarressed and actually lost sleep over my behaviour. worrying what others would think of me. what gossip is being said behind my back.im such an idiot!!!!
well im off now to do some fun exciting house chores. do it now then its done and i can relax....

Saturday, February 05, 2005


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Hungover!

seedy saturday.Im soooo not well. had a big night on the turps.chardonay,bourbon and coke, quick fucks and tequilla slammers. what a mix. no wonder i have a hang over from hell!!! i was oh sooo drunk. i went to a pub,snatched the mic out if the band players hand and made an announcement(we were celebrating a going away party for a co worker who was leaving)scored some drinks off guys i was flirting with and danced the night away. i managed to cop a bit of memory loss at the end of the night. my partner picked me up and told me this morning that i flaked out on the kitchen floor and couldnt get up. he said that i kept on saying "i cant get up, im so fat."so he then apparently grabbed me by the arms and dragged me along the kitchen tiles to the bed room and i woke up naked. i had no recollection of him putting me to bed and undressing me. pretty scary hey. we also got maccas on the way home. do you think i can remember eating a cheese burger and fries? NO.i was also told that i told him i chatted up a black man and scored free drinks. i really cant remember that. fortunately my partner isnt fussed about me chatting up guys for free drinks. i did say so shall i take a few condoms with me? a straight flat out ,NO. i was only joking. i would never cheat on him....
As for today,when i woke i still felt pissed. a thumping headache, nausea and a feelingof malaise. in other words i felt like crap!! i still do, but no where near as bad as i did this morning. its been such a lazy day. ive watched dvds, layed down on the couch for most of the day and managed to get some take away food. you cant beat the good ol take away food to assist in the recovery of a hang over. im never drinking like that again. yeah right! ive said that one before too many times.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

LIFE IS GRAND....

Ahhhhh. days off, sleep ins,slopping around. Bliss. Only did a few erands at the shops. managed to pick up lotto winnings from saturday lotto.whooo whooo.$27.00. Well i spose its better than a poke in the eye with a stick. LOL.im in a great mood. Euphoric almost.Whats wrong with me?I never feel like this. Maybe its because a few events are happening in my life instead of it being so sedate. Firstly i have a work doo tomorrow night which im really looking forward to.Secondly im starting holidays shortly and am going away. Thirdly theres plans taking place to go away with the girls from work to tasmania. And not to mention that i will probably be getting a new car within the next 8 weeks.Time for a reality check;im not on drugs;im not drinking alcohol;havnt had magic mushys;am not pre menstral. So whats the answer to my feelings?OMG, am i normal?NO. Cant be that.Maybe it is.......lol

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

holidays!

counting down....5 more working days,40hrs until im on annual leave. i cant wait. i havnt been away since november 2003,so i think i deserve a well rested holiday. im heading off to the NSW coast with my partner for 5 days. fingers crossed the weather will good.
also today at work a group of my working collegues have come up with the idea of a group of us to go away in may for a weekend. well maybe an extended weekend, 4 days. the plan as it stands at present is to jet set off to tasmania. it will be soooo good if all does go ahead.....
we spent a bit of time on the net looking up accomodation and came across a 7 star hotel in duibhai.(i really dont know how to spell that word..lol)OMG its situated in the ocean, has an underground restaurant and is PURE luxury. the cost? well wait for it.....$4000 dollars a night for a standard room. yeah right, i will just pull that out if my arse.NOT... give me a break. who on earth would pay that? the rich and only famous!!! i wonder if its any better than a budget motel? LOL.....

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

SSDD....

Work work work,
its hard to even smirk,
demanding people here and there,
how rude,dont they care?

Showers,making beds,
but wait!ive got to give you your meds.

bodily fluids,
including wee and pooh,
OMG,its cleaning i have to do.

im watching the clock,
i want to f*ck off,
im tired and worn out,
maybe i should let out an almighty shout!

Home at last,
time did not go fast,
time to eat,
then put up my feet....