rollercoaster from hell!

to keep things short as my beauty sleep awaits me;
hospital for alcoholism, depression(suicide attempt x2), relationship breakup, friendless, unhappiness, feeling like a burden, hopeless, FAT!, dissatisfaction with work, etc etc.......im fucked......
To be continued...............................

oh boy how things have changed!

here i sit. thinking what to tell. there's so much about me ATM. where do i start.
i will keep it brief!
i have moved from suburbia to the peninsula. too many dramas, too many hurdles that i couldn't jump. i still have moments where i think that I've made the wrong decision. then i have days that i believe i have made the right choice to move on and rebuild.I still continue to shed tears. the main title of my blog says it all!
Life is OK.I wish it could be better. i still have a long way to go. i need to start my rebuilding process, but don't know where to start. I have dreams, hopes, and ideas. They never come to fruition. I'm the worlds worst procrastinator!!! I need to a good kick up the butt to go where i want to be. Sometimes im confused as to what that is.

Thats it.for now. The Alcohol has taken over.

this year so far..........

hello bloggers! yes im back after a long break from pc land...
A lot has happened to me since my last post. Some is secret and some i can share.
Firstly, i have taken on a 2nd job in a private hospital. Its casual work, approximately one day a week. Its ok. Theres pros and cons like any job. However i still enjoy my work at the public hospital working a permanent position.
Secondly i have troubles with my pussy. Yes! My mischievious ball of fluff has started to behave badly. And its my cat that i speak of. LOL
He has been peeing in the house. Not once, twice or three times. There is four widows he has chosen to mark his scent. I always wondered why he only used the cat tray to poo in. I presumed he was urinating in the baths sink. Oh how wrong i was.
I left him in the house for 2 days during our HOT summer as i went away. On my return i could smell the strong aroma of cat urine wafting up my nostrils as i sat on the couch in the family room. Here i decided to investigate with my nose sniffing all around the room. Bingo! The ammonia smell knocked me for six as i sucked it in from the carpet at the window. NOT HAPPY.
Then i started to search around the house for other places and found that he had been peeing on my bedroom curtains, another window in the family room, and one in the lounge. I scrubed the carpet with stain remover and went to the vet to get some advice.
I had researched this habit and found a product named urine off. I mentioned it to the vet and was told that sprays wont work. He gave me some tablets that cost $48 for a months supply. Its kind of a relaxant to prevent unwanted bad behavior. Fingers crossed it does the trick.
My house smells of moth balls. ewwwww..... reason being; i was advised by the vet nurse to put down the moth balls in the spots where puss has been urinating as cats hate the smell and it will assist in the odour thats in the room. What a naughty naughty moggy. Funily enough, i still love him to bits..........
Thats all for now. be back soon.

life

life is shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats my post......

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Ok. i pulled out of the course.
The pressure was so great. It was too much for me to handle. My life had turned upside down. I wasn't functioning properly. And now im free! I have my life back instead of being buried in the books by self learning.
It is one of the hardest things i have had to do. Learning chemistry without a classroom, teachers and other students was oh so difficult.
Im not beating myself up for pulling out. My lecturer told me that its better to leave now than later. I was also told that if i want to do a bachelor degree in nursing, that a university in melbourne would be a good option for me. Even doing it part time may fit into my lifestyle.
So i will enquire before jumping in.
But for now im going to concentrate on myself and my health. I want to let my hair down a bit and have some fun!
Doing a 3yr degree by distant ed has proven to be a difficult task for me. I have come to the conclusion that i need students, teachers, and classroom stimulation to succeed.
So if anyone out there wants to do a degree via distant education, think twice about it befor jumping in. For some it will work, for others it may not.
For the time being i finally feel happy, and that a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Ange is back!!!!!!!!
I AM FREE. God it feels good.

soooooooooo busy

just a quick sentence.
im so flat out with school work and working. ive no time for play!
i feel like ripping my hair out........
im hanging in their....just!

ready and rearing!

well i survived my week away.
the other ppl i went with are easy going. so there was no hiccups.
i spent a week of information overload. it was an orientation/introduction into the course.
we learnt all about essay writing, nursing and the law, maths, and computing skills as the course is via distant education. im really impressed at the sites available. there are so many resources available. i thank my lucky stars that i have had my pc for over 2yrs and have developed computing skills. Otherwise i think i would be up shit creek without a paddle!
now it will be heads down, bums up. however, i work at my own pace. as long as i dont procrastionate and work like a snail.
so if i take a while to do an entry, you will know that i will be concentrating on my studies....
have a great week all. xo