FEAR

a day full of domestic duties and thinking of life and its challenges.
dating via the internet has to be one of the hardest things in the world. i recently went on a date and felt so incredably ill. my nerves were in overdrive. i couldnt eat and felt my respirations increase through sheer fear of what this stranger would be like, what his perceptions of me would be etc.... when we met i couldnt even hold my drink! i picked it up and was shaking as though i had parkinsons disease. then i was motor mouthing due to nervousness. he then told me to calm down. i was thinking "OMG ange whats wrong with you?"
i calmed down and took a deep breath. within 10 minutes i was relaxed. when i think back, i think how stupid!!!but hey i guess my human instincts are intact. fear though i came over. and i must mention that i once endulged in a book called " feel the fear and do it anyway". its so true. no matter what your fearful of, once you tackle it head on all seems to fall into place. ithink fear of the unknown will always be a tricky one to dismiss. but as i said above once in that predicament and feeling the fear, it soon subsides....